A few months ago, I quietly put my men’s coach hat back on.
Having worked exclusively with women for the past 6 years…
Something was stirring.
It was time.
This is the logo for the program I created.
I didn’t realize it would end up being so significant to me personally.
I just wanted to make a cool logo, you know? 🤷🏻♂️
So once deciding on a final image, name, and colour scheme, I casually posted in our private community, asking the women in there:
“Hey, what do you feel when you look at this? How does it land in your body?”
And as they often do, these amazing women picked up on something.
More than one woman came back with “Aslan”.
And the subject of CS Lewis’ books in general popped up.
I’d not read them - just watched (many times) the 1970’s animated film as a kid.
But my mum had.
And this is where it gets interesting (at least for me).
There were several times when I was very young that my mum told me about a stuffed toy lion she used to have - called Aslan.
She’d had it since she was 18, given to her by her first boyfriend - who, to my understanding, was her ‘true love’, that I got the sense she longed for.
And upon reflection, sadly, I think was the only healthy relationship she ever knew.
They were forced to part by their parents due to religious and cultural stuff.
Here’s the dark part…
I never got to see Aslan because, as she told me, my dad forced her to get rid of it.
In a fit of ‘retroactive jealousy’, sensing its significance regarding another man, he felt threatened by it.
Now, we can question why my mum told me this when I was so young, and have the conversation about ‘enmeshment’ between boys and unconscious mothers…
But either way, this story broke my little heart.
So what’s going on with this logo?
Well, it’s no mystery to me why I moved into helping women come home to themselves…
To develop boundaries, clarity, find their voice, and gain the wisdom for creating healthy relationships.
You don’t have to be Sigmund Freud to figure this one out.
With each client success story, I’m rescuing my mother over and over again.
Duh.
And so as I move (back) into helping men become Kings of Truth, Love, and Purpose…
Aslan, it seems, has made himself known from deep within my psyche.
The King has returned.
In more ways than one…
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Because of my mum’s religious trauma, my sister and I were raised completely agnostic.
Not even athiest.
Where my mum might have installed something spiritual, there was simply… nothing.
Zero conversations, one way or another.
Even on her deathbed when I was 21, she said nothing that would reveal to me what she believed.
And so in recent years, as I’ve ‘done the work’ to heal and grow just like I help others do, something did reveal itself to me.
After all the inner child work, examining what I needed as a child, etc, it turns out the key thing was this:
I wanted my mum to heal her relationship with God.
That’s what I needed. Not just more hugs, or more validation, or whatever.
That was always the thing.
Revealed to me around 40 years old 🤯
What has this got to do with Aslan?
Despite growing up knowing well the storyline of ‘The Lion, The Witch, & The Wardrobe’, I didn’t make the connection between Aslan and Jesus.
In hindsight, it’s so obvious.
He literally died and resurrected.
But it was only after a bit of research, after the women in our community pointed me in that direction, that I connected some dots.
It turns out CS Lewis didn’t write Aslan as a Christ-like character.
He wrote Aslan AS THE CHRIST in the fictional world of Narnia.
That was always his intention.
In the same way He made Himself known on earth in human form, in the land of talking beasts, He made Himself known as such.
Now, for me, this logo isn’t just a program logo.
And maybe the T in ‘truth’ is just The Sword of Truth…
Maybe it’s something else.
All I know is, whatever energy or truth is coming through all this…
It’s not just my mum who needed it.
The world is ready for gentle but untamed, protective, loyal, and courageous masculine love.
And I am grateful to serve this purpose.
