After coaching so many men, there are a handful of patterns that I have observed that come up frequently. This one in particular, is one I can relate to a lot – I can smell it from a mile away, having suffered quite a lot from my previous unconsciousness of it in my past relationships.

I was quite nervous about this going out there. I was actually super tired when this was recorded a month ago and wasn't sure how I'd come across. We also went a bit deep and some of what was discussed in the interview brought some 'stuff' up for me that I've been looking into since.

It's also very subtle. But it's not the insecurity. It's not from a small or damaged part of me. It's from my heart, the depth of my masculine core. It's dark - but it isn't 'bad'.

I want to kill him.